Monday, June 9, 2008

At The Front Door

It seems like time has flown by since the night I went over to Devon's. I went over there with the intention of finding something, or doing something to make him come home.

As you all know, I didn't find him, instead I spotted his laptop and decided to email him. I poured my heart out into an email that I really didn't think I would be around to see him read - let alone spill to him the moment I saw him wrapped up in another chick.

OK, to be honest, he wasn't wrapped up in her, he actually looked a little bored with her. Or maybe that's what I wanted to see. Who really knows?

All I know is that I was the one he didn't want to leave that night. I was the one he was spending time with. I was the woman who's hand was in his. I was the women he wanted be to with.

And, since I'm being honest, despite the troubles in our past and the uncertainty of our future, I wanted to be with him. Call me crazy, but I don't care. I meant what I said in the email to him.

"Janie?" Devon crouched down until he was eye to eye with me. He chuckled nervously, something I barely ever heard him do.

He didn't push me. After the initial 'can I go with you?' Devon didn't ask or beg or anything - he waited. Waited for me to utter something to give him hope.

"Devon...." I let out the breath I was apparently holding. It was a big moment for me, to admit that I wanted someone by my side, I wanted to say the right thing. I wanted it to be perfect. Well, as perfect as possible.

The front door opened and the blonde poked her head out. "Devon are you coming in?"

I yanked my hand back and turned away from them. I wanted to walk away but I just couldn't do it, I didn't want anything to happen between them. I didn't want her to think that if I left it meant she had a free pass with my man.

That's right, I said it 'my' man.

And as soon as the little skank was out of the way, I planned on telling him. "I think it's time to go home," I said over my shoulder.

"No!" Devon exclaimed as I felt him move in behind me. "Janie we need -"

Looking over my shoulder, I stared past him, to her. "It's time for you to go home."

She started to sputter, asking me who I thought I was.

I resisted the urge to turn around and rise to the bait. I didn't need to explain anything to her.

As I stood with my back to them, I heard Devon tell her that I was right, it was time for her to go home.

"Are you sure?" She asked him.

"Yes," he replied.

"Ok." She walked by me but before she disappeared out of sight, she turned. "Tell her the truth Devon. I'll talk to you later."

18 comments:

Angela said...

Hello Everyone

Just wanted to let you all know that, if things go according to plan, this week will see the end of Janie's blog.

I hope you are all having a great day. Me, I'm doing to bed now ~l~

Angela

KBear said...

im glad that were going to be getting to the end. it seems almost "right" - whichever way she chooses, whichever way it goes, I think it's a good place to stop.

can't wait for the conclusion Angela. looks good!

Anonymous said...

I'll be sad to see it end but no matter which way it turns out I agree with kbear, it almost seems like the "right" time.
So Angela, will you be starting a new blog or posting more on the others? Are you planning on ending Tanner's blog as well? Just curious. Have a great night!

Vikki said...

That was rather ominous...can't wait to see what happens. And I agree with kbear. Either way, it will be a good place to end.

laura said...

I hope that she doesnt stay with Devon. I just feel like its the same thing over and over already of Devon trying to show Janie he loves her and Janie pushes him away and then she catches him with another girl or a compromising position.

I feel like there is no trust between the two of them and how can you build a relationship on that?

I would just like to see Janie maybe be on her own for a bit.

Just my opinion tho!

Lynn said...

I hope they BOTH get honest with each other. I'm a romantic so I hope they get together and ride off into the sunset. I would like to have a reference to Amber and Reed so they can all have some sort a closure.
Angela, I enjoyed Janie's blog a lot and thought it was very real life in how Janie acted. I also loved Ambers blog too. Thanks for the great reads!

rosecheeks18 said...

I'm with Lynn.. I really want them to end up together. They have been through so much, but I honestly think it has strengthened them. There's so much love and passion between them... but maybe I'm just a romantic too.

Anonymous said...

Hi Angela,
I've have never commented before but I am glad that you have decided to end this blog. Like the other 2 blogs I have enjoyed it immenseley but dragging them out the way you have isn't fair to either you or to us. Wrap them up in one post and say goodbye. Your heart isn't in it anymore and frankly it has gotten to the point that many of us don't care either.

Anonymous said...

Hi Angela,
I've have never commented before but I am glad that you have decided to end this blog. Like the other 2 blogs I have enjoyed it immensely but dragging them out the way you have isn't fair to either you or to us. Wrap them up in one post and say goodbye. Your heart isn't in it anymore and frankly it has gotten to the point that many of us don't care either.

Anonymous said...

Can anyone say "backhanded compliment"?

Anonymous said...

I agree with anon. some what. Im glad this blog is ending and hopefully tanners and Annas to. I just feel that all your stories are going in the same circles, i.e. devon CONSTANTLY asking janine to give him a chance and Janie thinking about it for days on end or sara not wanting to have sex with tanner and them just making out over and over again.

Dont get me wrong, I will continue to read ur great stories but here's hoping for something new.

Anonymous said...

I agree with anon. some what. Im glad this blog is ending and hopefully tanners and Annas to. I just feel that all your stories are going in the same circles, i.e. devon CONSTANTLY asking janine to give him a chance and Janie thinking about it for days on end or sara not wanting to have sex with tanner and them just making out over and over again.

Dont get me wrong, I will continue to read ur great stories but here's hoping for something new.

Anonymous said...

I still think that Janie should end up with Sean. Sean and her story seems like it should have begun and it never did because it kept getting pushed out of the way by Devon.

Anonymous said...

hmmm..good point anon. I would like to see her with sean too!!

DDgirl said...

I can't stop checking, can't wait to see how it ends!
Angela you're great, if you wrap up all your current blogs, all I can say is I hope you'll start new ones!!!!

mum said...

I hear you DDgirl. I can't tell you how many times I've checked. On the edge of my seat....mum

Along this path said...

Hi Angela,

It has been quite a while since I have left a comment, but I have never stopped reading your stories. Thanks so much for the writing you do - it has given me countless hours of entertainment at my boring job. I know that the negative comments have increased lately, but please don't take it to heart. There are so many of us who truly love coming here to see what you have written. I hope to see more stories from you in the future! I know you've probably got tons of ideas in that head of yours.

MH

Anonymous said...

Where is the post???